More than before, this year, I've been directly interacting with people who come for alms for all varied purposes - mostly genuine and urgent. Sifting their petitions and making decisions has not been an easy endeavour. Yet something I observed in myself is this: the power of decision making, especially when the other is 'weak' and is expectantly looking up to you, is very very intoxicating. The temptation to look down and feel elated is very hard to resist. The feeling of being in authority, being in control and worse still, being better off than the other, offers a strange kind of high. The tendency to preach and dole out advice is a direct outcome of such intoxication.
God help me!
God help me!
Good boy. Be careful. It's very subtle and totally misleading.
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