Leadership issues

 The question of leadership was a big part of my reflection before Jesus this evening. Not about leadership in general, but me being in a position of leadership right now.  

If my efforts and time and energy has been invested in just the mundane, the regular aspects of religious finance and administration; bereft of anything higher or more relevant to religious life and apostolate, is that enough? 

If setting right the basics, the most fundamental values of religious life - even human values - is all that I've made efforts towards, then is the responsibility of leadership worth it at all? And when day by day, we battle the same issues, cropping from the very same causes, unable to get out or even move beyond some of these so frivolous or scandalous matters, then is it worth being a leader.  

It appears as if preventing matters from getting worse, is good enough!  Leave alone, widening or deepening the various dimensions of our apostolate.  

So what's better: repeatedly preventing something from getting worse (constant fire-fighting, settling petty clashes, calming egoistical tantrums, challenging duplicity...), as a leader OR striving for something better, as a commoner?

If the above pictorial representation is anything worth it, the goal is far from achievable as a leader.  Easier as a commoner! Because then, one does not have that as the goal; it is the natural lifestyle!